It’s been six months since my mother died, aged 80, in a care home, suffering with dementia. Locked inside to protect her and fellow residents from contracting coronavirus. Over those months, I have frequently wondered if how I grieve is the right way, always looking around me for clues.
How often should I cry? How much should I rest? What’s an acceptable amount of time to take off work (I’m self-employed)? Should I keep myself busy? Am I keeping myself too busy? Is it too soon to say goodbye to Mum’s clothes?
Given my constant questioning, I was heartened to read in “Good Grief: Embracing Life at a Time of Death,” that there is no right or wrong way to grieve.
Authors Catherine Mayer and her mother, Anne Mayer Bird, who lost their husbands within 41 days of each other, gave me permission to grieve on my own terms. And in my own time. Without looking to others for answers.
It seems obvious. It is obvious. But for me, it was reassuring to see it written down. We’ll all journey through grief in a different way, and that’s exactly as it should be.
So Grateful I Don’t Grieve Alone
This isn’t my first experience of losing a loved one. My father died some 14 years ago, which seems such a long time ago now. I was 30-something and single at the time, and his death shattered me.
My mother’s death has, too, in different ways. We were closer, our relationship was more complex, and she was my last remaining parent. So it was a massive blow. But I’m better equipped now for such an emotional earthquake than I was when Dad died.
I’m older (I turned 50 two months after Mum died), I’ve already lost one parent so I have some experience under my belt. I’m also married to a supportive partner. He was by my side throughout Mum’s final days and continues to prop me up when required.
I found this man later in life, marrying him when I was 48. I can’t imagine life without him. So I can’t imagine what Mayer and Mayer Bird went through, and continue to go through, after losing their husbands of multiple decades.
Learning to Grieve in a Lockdown
They were also bereaved just before the U.K. declared a national lockdown. They were unable to hug their nearest and dearest and only saw each other once a week, at a distance and wearing masks.
Yet this extraordinary backdrop has produced an extraordinary book, which I believe will bring comfort to anyone who’s lost a loved one. More so if that loss occurred during these times of closed hospital wards, limited numbers at funerals and covered faces.
There’s something powerful and healing about reading someone else’s journey through grief. It helps us to feel less alone with our feelings and sometimes, it helps us to cry, which we may need to do.
I certainly felt less alone when I read some of the authors’ relatable anecdotes
Love Is Sorting Out Your Admin
How they held it together through some tough times then burst into tears when the Wi-fi router broke down. How they felt moved by the kindness of strangers but hurt by the friends who disappeared, perhaps saying nothing because they didn’t know what to say.
I cried too at various points, notably when I read about the importance of naming our final resting place. My Mum didn’t leave us with much paperwork to do, or “sadmin” as Mayer calls it. But she did leave a simple Will, that stated where she wanted her ashes to be scattered.
Knowing her wishes and knowing that we will honor them in due course brings me some comfort. It also reminds me of the importance of putting my own affairs in order, even if I live for many years to come.
The Love Outweighs the Loss
This is one of the key messages of the book: we must talk about death and prepare for it, out of love for those we’ll leave behind. Will I take this on board and revise my out-of-date Will? Or will I keep putting it off, as so many of us do?
There’s another vital message in this book that moved me to tears: the idea that we grieve profoundly because we have loved deeply. And that, despite the pain of losing someone, it was worthwhile.
Reading this, I feel grateful that I found the courage to love. I feel inspired to dive into the rest of life, to take risks and to walk through my fears.
I thank the authors for their courage in sharing their truth and for their encouragement to embrace life fully.
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